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s. rochelle's avatar

Wow. This closely resonates with my own motherhood journey. Reading your story brought tears to my eyes. Thank you for sharing 🙏

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Alysia Moonrise's avatar

I love hearing that it resonates with you. Sometimes it just helps to know we’re not alone in the challenge ❤️

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Lyndsay Kaldor's avatar

Thank you for writing and sharing your story Alysia, I found it incredibly moving to see you showing compassion for your past selves. We can be so hard on ourselves as mothers, when often we need mothering through the process ourselves. Thank you again, it felt very healing and powerful to read your words xx

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Alysia Moonrise's avatar

Thank you, Lyndsay 💜 Your words mean so much to me. Often, the most challenging thing about motherhood is remembering to mother ourselves through the process. 🌹

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Suzanne Peters-Float's avatar

I absolutely do identify with this post. I was so not in a good place to be a mother and consider it a miracle that I didn't end my life and am here to tell the tale. My daughter is 39 and about a year or so ago, I had therapy (she had been having it for a few years on/off) and it is due to that we managed to repair the unspoken damage done to my relationship with her. It still breaks my heart that she felt so much hurt and I didn't realise as I was struggling to just keep myself afloat and alive.

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Alysia Moonrise's avatar

Suzanne, thank you for sharing so vulnerably. I honor you for what you’ve survived and that you chose to love yourself enough to keep going. 💜 It isn’t always an easy choice, but we did it. And to live with the ongoing healing can be a challenge in itself. I wish you and your daughter all the love and blessings in your forgiveness journey and your heroic human journey. 🔥🌹

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Suzanne Peters-Float's avatar

Thank you Alysia.

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Lauren Barber's avatar

This is so beautiful Alysia, I often have to come to a place of forgiveness for the mother I have been… I think compassion and understanding for ourselves when doing what we can in challenging situations is so important. Thank you for sharing your words here xxx

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Alysia Moonrise's avatar

Thank you, Lauren! I’m so glad it resonates. It was my hope that other mothers would relate to the challenges I share and find some healing in it. I’m so glad you’ve been able to find forgiveness for yourself with compassion. It helps to know that other mothers relate to this. Blessings 💜✨❤️‍🔥

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Goddess Renell's avatar

I am grateful and I send blessings for serenity and strength! It takes a strong and divine feminine to stand true to who she is. A beautiful being of light! 🌟 🌹💙

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Alysia Moonrise's avatar

Thank you, @Goddess Renell 💜🌹 So grateful for you and your divine feminine presence on this platform!

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Jenna Newell Hiott's avatar

Oh my goodness, Alysia, this is so beautiful! Thank you for putting this into the world. It's something all of us mothers need to hear. I truly do see you as a lionness...not only strong, fierce and capable, but also a true sister and advocate. Lots and lots of love to you! 💖

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Alysia Moonrise's avatar

Jenna, thank you so much. This means a lot to me, and your loving words empower my heart today. Lots of love, sister 💜🌹

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Allysha Lavino's avatar

This is beautiful, Alysia. Strong and vulnerable at once. Thank you for sharing your journey 🙏 ✨

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Alysia Moonrise's avatar

Thank you, Allysha! 🌹 Your motherhood stories have been so inspiring for me as well. Thank you for sharing your journey! 🌟

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Sylvia Rose's avatar

I am so there with you! I’ve only just started communing with the different versions of myself, but haven’t even attempted coming face-to-face with the mother. Thank you for sharing your story 💜

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Alysia Moonrise's avatar

Sylvia, thank you! I love that you commune with the different versions of yourself, too! I believe you have the strength within to have that face-to-face when you're ready and not one moment before. 🌹

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Julie Schmidt's avatar

I love this Alysia! I understand the darkness that needs to be walked through, to meet and truly see the illusions that we have been force fed. It's not an easy journey! I have walked this too, I feel you dear woman!

And regarding choices... I am just ruminating here... I wonder are we truly at choice if we are so steeped in the conditioning that has been applied for the past few millenniums, that we don't see anything else? That is some heavy duty indoctrination and brainwashing. It seems choice can only truly arrive when there is an awakening, when we begin to feel our head lifting from the fog. I wonder if we as women hold ourselves to such a high standard, that not making right choices becomes another thing to beat ourselves up with? I am not saying this is you, and maybe it's all me... Just questions I am considering that was raised while reading your post.

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Alysia Moonrise's avatar

Thank you, Julie!! I know you understand the journey well, and I'm so glad we've come together to share our stories and the journey.

I love your rumination! It's a great question that can probably be talked about for hours. I agree. True choice arrives when we are clear enough to see all of our choices without a clouded lens. I think that's a lot of what inspired this post because I've been asking myself questions like this a lot recently and seeing how lost in the dark I was that I couldn't even consider that I was actually a warrior and not a weak woman. And I believe you're also absolutely right that we, as women, can beat ourselves up by wondering if we're making the right choice or not. Something that we're all clearing now as we step more into the heart and the body for guidance rather than the mind. 💜🖤

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Erica Phillips Graves 🔮's avatar

So proud of you. 💕

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Alysia Moonrise's avatar

Thanks, beloved sister 🌹💜🌹💜🌹💜

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